What made you stop being an addict?

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

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So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

If I only have a fire extinguisher to defend myself against some threat from people, should I spray them for max damage or just hit them with the fire extinguishers?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

What is one thing you've learned from life?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

What were some of the unforgettable incidents from your school life?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Just keep trying

I did it in my administrator's office.

Why does Filipino culture dictate that parents should be treated as gods?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

What are some signs that someone may be being stalked by an organization or secret society? How can they find out for sure?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

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Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

This was February 2019.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

Why do people stay in cults after they have joined?

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Why do we still feel attached or jealous when a covert narcissist moves on, even after realizing their toxicity and the suffering they caused?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

And I can also talk to them now.

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I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Why do I sweat so much at the gym?

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

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Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

What made you recently say to yourself, “Wait. Really?”

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

What are some reasons why people may fear strong men?

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

What is the difference between anxiety and depressive neurosis?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Read that again ☝️

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.